badly hurt

malam ni...hati aku gelisah...
aku xtaw napa..izit juz a feelings??
i dun know wut to write...
my heart and souls feel emptied....
i cant write...i cant feel my environment...
im heartless tonite...
wanna scream my lungs out...
sakitnya...sakit jantung ke ape pn xtaw....
i cant stop thinking...
im badly injured and badly hurt...
i cant pretend too long...
i want to faced it....
somehow its hurt...
idk wuts good or bad...
i want em badly...
but im afraid my doings will hurt em badly....
what should i do...
im hurting myself to see em happy..
i do feel happy when em happy...
but idk whether my doing is right or wrong...
please...help me...i have been holding it for too long...
its hurting me inside out....
i hv been controlling it for months....
im hurt...badly wound....
badly bleeding...
what should i do???
i need hugs...i need kiss...i need em....i need the whole package of em
y muz things turn out like diz...
wuts my fault...
wuts hv i done...
am i the one who is ruining evrything???
godddd please help me...im begging u....
show me the path...i dun know wut is wrong or right anymore....
give me the strength to faced all diz....
i trust the fate...but please god....
give me the strength .... i cant do diz anymore...
i need strength to do diz...dont make me easily give up...
i know u wouldnt test me if im not capable of it...
sooo pleaseee god...give me the strength....
i want to fight for it....
give me ur bless...give me the strength....
i will fight till the end of my .........
in the name of god....
verily after each difficulties....
i have faith in u...
there's nutink easy in this world
its hard to get happiness
but i trust you...
you are the one...
i'll fight!!