L-I-F-E

nape aku letak gmba2 ni ek?cam poyo jerk kan...klau letak..mesti ahh ada sebab kn...
things owez happen for reasons... tp kalau org2 d luar sna nk kta aku poyo semata2 kerana aku letak gmba2 org yg aku syg ni...lantak korang ah... satu PERINGATAN KERAS k??

AKU TAK KACAU HIDUP KORANG..
AKU TAK KACAU DUIT KORANG...
AKU TAK KACAU PRIVATE LIFE KORANG..
SO BACK OFF AND STOP BEING A BUSY BODY...
U ASS-LESS SH**...

OK LETS START ALL OVER AGAIN..sorry for the HARSH words... nama pun peringatan keras kn?? well azie sja letak pic2 ni...ada setgh pic tu ulang je...sbbnye RINDU...SAYANG...dan KASIH...

i miss my frenz...my family...and my LIFE...

Feringghi

3 days 2 night at
Park Royal Penang,
Batu Feringghi

Eating session!nyam2

PLAY TIME!!!!!!!!!!

GAMES ROOM

TIRED

Swimming Time!!

hoedown throw down by miley cyrus...

this is one of the song that cn make u move around and dance...

lalalla..leave all da pain behind and start shaking babeh...ahakz

Boom Boom Clap
Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap
Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap
Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom
De Clap De Clap

Try It With Me Here We Go
Boom Boom Clap
Boom De Clap De Clap (Whoa, Whoa)
That’s Right
Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap Boom
De Clap De Clap (Whoa, Whoa)

1,2,3 Everybody Come On,
Off Your Seats
I Gonna Tell You About A Beat,
That’s Gonna Make You Move Your Feet
I’ll Give The Bar-B-Q,
Show and Tell You How To Move
If your 5 or 82
This Is Something You Can Do (Whoa, Whoa)

Pop It, Lock It, Polka-Dot-It
Countrify, then Hip-Hop it
Put Your Hawk In The Sky,
Go Side To Side
Jump To The Left,
Stick It, Glide

Zig, Zag ‘cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits,
Hands On Your Hips
One Foot In, 180 Twist
And Then a,

Zig Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, Clap 3 Times
Shake It Out, Head To Toe
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Roll
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Roll

We Get To 4, 5, 6
And Your Feeling Busted
But It’s Not Time To Quit,
Practice Makes You Perfect (Whoa, Whoa)

Pop It, Lock It, Polka-Dot-It (Whoa, Whoa)
Countrify, Then Hip-Hop it (Yeah, Yeah)
Put Your Hawk In The Sky,
Move Side To Side (Hey, Hey)
Jump To The Left, Stick It,
Glide

Zig, Zag ‘cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits,
Hands On Your Hips
One Foot In, 180 Twist
And Then A,

Zig Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, Clap 3 Times
Shake It Out, Head To Toe
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Roll
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Roll

Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap,
Come On Here We Go
Boom Boom Clap,
Boom De Clap De Clap
Boom Boom Clap,
Boom De Clap De Clap

Pop It, Lock It, Polka-Dot-It (Whoa, Whoa)
Countrify, Hip-Hop It (Yeah, Yeah)
Put Your Hawk In The Sky,
Move Side To Side (Hey, Hey)
Jump To The Left, Stick It,
Glide

Zig, Zag ‘cross The Floor,
Shuffle in Diagonal
When The Drum Hits,
Hands On Your Hips
One Foot In, 180 Twist
And Then a,
Zig Zag, Step, Slide,
Lean In Left, Clap 3 Times
Shake It Out, Head To Toe
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Roll

Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Role

Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Do The Hoedown (Throw down)
Throw It All Together,
That’s How We Role

Boom De Clap, Boom Boom Clap,
Boom Boom De Boom Boom De Clap Boom Boom De Clap, Clap
Boom Day Clap, Boom Boom Clap
Throw It All Together
That’s how we Roll

1,2,1,2,3,4

1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

Give me more lovin’ than I’ve ever had
Make it all better when I’m feelin’ sad
Tell me that I’m special even when I know I’m not

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Barely gettin’ mad, I’m so glad I found you

I love bein’ around you

You make it easy, it’s as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There’s only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words and that’s what I’ll do, I love you

Give me more lovin’ from the very start
Piece me back together when I fall apart
Tell me things you never even tell your closest friends

Make me feel good when I hurt so bad
Best that I’ve had, I’m so glad that I found you
I love bein’ around you
You make it easy, it’s as easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There’s only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words and that’s what I’ll do, I love you
I love you

You make it easy, it’s easy as 1, 2, 1, 2, 3, 4

There’s only one thing to do
Three words for you I love you
There’s only one way to say
Those three words and that’s what I’ll do, I love you
I love you

1, 2, 3, 4
I love you
I love you

friends...i owez love u guys even if u guys dont...

friends...do u remember that we used to climb the wall...lie on the grass shaping objects in the clouds...izin ol dat is a very precious moments?

idk how to start diz out...

hati keringkah aku dengan mengIGNORE my surrounding???
but...i dun want to be sad...
thats all...i miss my past...so FUN...its dem F-U-N~!!

salah ke klau aku xnk tunjukkan diri aku yang sebenar??
teruk sgt ke diri aku ni??

dan paling menyedihkan..bila kehilangan orang yang selama ni bergantung susah dan senang...
tapi apa aku leh bwad...takdir~

once again..aku biasa mengadu dkt da same person dat i feel bad bout my own attitude..
felt like running far far away from evryting..hate it when i hv to lie to myself..
S*** man...

but then die ada ckp...

"zie,kalau org len x knl diri kau,tu xpe..tapi kau kena yakin dgn diri kau..u control ur self..u know ur self better...x perlu kisah apa yg org pk...asalkan kau tahu apa yang baik dan buruk"

*beh kurang gtu la kot ayat dia*

pas bca text msg dia..aku rsa a lil bit lega...btol jugak apa dia ckp...klau aku tuan punya badan x reti hargai diri sniri,spa lg yg nk hargai aku?

'w'out u realize it or not,u r good as da way u r...dun feel bad bout urself'

:(( waaa thz for such word...

but...but...u guys dun understand it...if they feel lonely...i feel like em....discriminate and terasing...klau dlu...bila sedih bila frust...da mmg ada org ready nk tggu dan tenangkn...ada org pujuk dan try to make me feel better...

past few days...im soo deepyly in sad..sangat kecewa dgn smua yg terjadi...i dun blame anybody...but i juz feel sooo dissappointed...dats ol...
sgt sedih dat night...cm nk hempok je smua bnda yg ada di sekeliling..nk bertukar jadi hulk pn ada gak rsa....
tbe2 dpt satu call...guess what?!!

its HIM!!afta few month from 'dat' incident suddenly he called...izit suddenly??
ntahla...xnk pk...but i juz cant hold any longer...i missed him dem much and when i really need him to calm me down..suddenly he appear...sayuu sgt2...

when he called me,suara dia sgt ceria get to talk with me...
but mayb expectation dia unt tgk aku happy menjunam jatuh mcm kerugian stok bursa saham agknye...

mana x nye..da moment i heard him call me "assalamualaikum..hello syg..bwad pe tu?sihat?miss u" gosh! tears bursting again...non stop mcm curahan air di Niagra Falls..
so stupid but i really mish him...

kesian dia..terkaku tiba2...
minus all da part pujuk2...satu yg aku sgt tersentuh when afta i said to him dat ...
"dlu bila resah..bila sedih..abg ada..skang org da hilang dia..abg jauh....org keliru..org xtaw cane nk bangun dr kekecewaan ni...org benci jd lemah cmni for sum1 yg x penah msuk hdp org secara total pn..."

dia tegelak je dgr aku ckp..

"syg..since when u lost me?jarak x penah memisahkn kita ...i owez love u n u owez hv me whenever u want n need me...hijab yg terbentang xkn sekali memisahkn kasih yg tercipta kn?u know dat...dah jgn sedih2...mayb dia x terniat nk bwad gtu kt azie..juz b patient k?azie yg abg kenal kuat semangat..mna maen nanges2 gni..x cool la kn? "

okek..i feel like kickin him hard..aku tgh sedih dia smpt melawak..but dats da only things yg dia ada org len xda..he know hw to cheer me up again...where cn i find another bro juz like him...

afta dat call, i felt better and da ok sket..but suddenly las friday, a frenz of mine come juz to see me..from far she came juz to take my for tea?oh cmmon..mest ada sumting...
she took me to mum's roti and we had quite a heavy meal la...

sum pasta,choc blended and pie...
dats my dish okek??haha for her she toke sum soup,n cake...diet agknye? :P

bila mata bertemu mata...smua terluah..ternyata berat hajat yg dibawanya...i dun want to talk about it...talking bout it juz like opening back all my wounded stitches....but bila pk kn dia sggup dtg dr jauh smata2 want to ask for forgiveness..i kinda kesian la plak...

so i decided to said...

"okek,speak ur mind...ask me whatever u want aslkn u puas ati...n if honesty u seek for, than i'll be as honest as i cn..."

so bermula la sesi temuduga...
bila da smbg2 baru la i phm..rupanya mreka2 ni ingatkn perubahan sikapku kerana telah kehilangan dia...nk tergelak pn ada...

its juz not me unt cry over things yg sgt x patut gtu..i trus our fate...ada kalo..ada la..xda kalo bye2 je la..sum1 better is waitink for me la klau gtu...soooo kesian...
but then soalan cepumas keluar...

"then babe,apa yg bwad u berubah ni??apa slh kitorg smpai u ngelak cm ni?if i ever hurt u, im sorry...but temme why?"

okek at dat time dlm otak aku...

'mati kau azie!apa kau nk goreng ni..perencah xdak nk goreng2...'

and she keep talkin and coaxing me untill i want to reveal everything...

"oh girls...u guys dun knw me well enough...i dun like talkin bout my past la...wut past is past..if u guys ada bwad slh..dun wurry..u guys r my fren..x minx maaf pn i maafkn..even my musuh ketat yg slalu bwad S*** dgn i pn i mampu maafkn dan duduk semeja mkn bergurau..inikn pulak u guys yg agak rapat dgn i berbanding org len...jgn ah cmni..."

okek dats da honest thing i can said to her...x tmbh ajinomoto...jujur dr hati...

x suka la dendam2...itu smua kerja syaitan..ragu2 itu pn bisikan syaitan la...juz ignore it n live our life k???

apa pn yg terjadi we r still frenz and will owez be frenz...

n for u babe, bkn i xnk tnjuk diri i yg sbenar...tp blom tnjuk pn da terluka..beh bek xyah tunjuk spa diri i yg sbenar kn? ;) dun feel worst...

i owez love both of u....although if u guys dont..u should know dat..;)

nak tahu sapa dlm hati sy ikut trutan??? ;)
*ALLAH DAN NABI tentulah dlm hati*
1 - parents n fam
2- MNF n myself
3- yanie
4- nine
5- nik
6-zalya
7-nini
8-incik STAI
9- Kucin matrix *hystrix*
10-ijay..

even u guys dun love me...i still love u guys...

oh yg di atas hyala yg terlalu rapat... x lupa jugak tribute unt2 dak2 star-park...syg korang
- hafiz
-ody
-mard
-muaz
-yana
-ean
-trah
-gengster x
- ekhsan

love u larh... ;)

wut should cuzzy's do?? of cuz...i forgot! look after diz nooligans... kesian anak sedara kami... sempat lagi kami berposing...dan dia mnyibuk!haha
wut else should cuzzy's do???

okek... -_-" listen to the cousin when he want to play sum song??
"lagu rock satu bhai!!!"
heewif my bro...bkn yg baju itam tu...tp yg dlm gajah biru ni...haha baju itam tu future in law...
eshk2

kenangan kau dan aku..teluk batik trip...TRIP ke??huhuhu
hobi kita yg suka bergamba...

Voice of the unheard talker..

*continue*

after a long period of heartbreaking and disappointment...
finally im back again with new spirit and courage...
COURAGE???
well of cuz la...we need courage to move on aint we??
we need good positive spirit to be happy didnt we?

soo what past is past...

no more looking back...

rite now...im trying to be a new person...huh???

'NEW PERSON'???
hmmmm

during my short hols ( till now laa)...
i always keep to myself and kept thinking about everything dat had happen...
i know dat i should change myself...
i want to be sum1 new...
its not dat i hate my old self...

but HIJRAH...

from bad to sum1 good....
attitude...
emotionallly...
psychologically...
zahir dan batin...
wuhhh

tggi nya angan aku..
but dats my aim...
sumtimes, we dun need to b fren wif sum1 for too long cuz a good fren can easily b dtect when they always try their best to make you look best!

*ayat keling kah??*

ehem3..:D

few weeks before...
i used to go to one of my frenz and speak my mind out to em..
i was soo demn confused,angry and sad at that time...
and then the frenz of mine cool'ly (ada ka coolly??haha) told me and advice me the things dat for me its hard for sum1 else to say it out...
i kinda struck by his advice...but i take it slowly and try to think of its pro and cons...
well he is rite!what he said is totally rite!

after a awhile..
i kinda abashed towards him cuz he already saw me crying more than one...malu seh!
but everytime im in sooth(bak kta shakespeare) tba2 dia muncul cm chipsmore...
sumtimes i feel like kicking him away....EGO NEHhhh

but then...he didnt disturbed me till im ok...soo i kinda appreaciate his presence and the presence of another frenz of mine....there are two of em...

kiranya kt sni i nak give trillions of thanks to em la...
empunya diri mesti tahu kan...
kes kat M square..kes kat mna2 jugak la di msa saya jiwa kacau..hihi

what make me thinks of em???
bcuz!he went for hols and leave all the work to me alone without any news!! :((
nk bunuh dia!
the works reminds me of him...
when i tot of him...
i kept thinking about he said to me few weeks past...
all his advice....
sgt terharu...

as a friends...
saya sgt terharu atas teguran awak tu...thanks dude...
thanks atas teguran yg sgt lembut tp tepat ke hati...ouch!sakit!but u make me realized one thing about life...

i must change!change for good!leave everything!be the one...
with all ur advice, u make me see the world diffly...
with the helps from the blog url u gave me, i see thinks diffly...
thanks for ol doz things...
although it is still a long journey for me to change totally..
but i will try my best....i want to be among doz who hv been promised a heaven for em...
i want it...
god...plz help me..guide me to your light...

Berikan daku cahaya syurgamu...
di mana nur firdauz yg ku dmbakan bersama suci cintaNya...
Berkati aku dlm lindunganmu...
Jauhi aku dari godaan syaitan dan iblis...
Sesungguhnya manusia adalah lebih baik dr jin dan syaitan....

for god sake...take me to YOU...i want to be with you...

Fantasy World Tick tock tick tock

hmm

the time continue ticking...
my cuz asked me juz now...
"zie,u x update ke ur blog?"

okek...i finally remember my 1st intention of goin online..huhuhu
but then~wut shud i write??
i do hv lotsa things on ma mind...but idk how to speak it out...
if we wanna talk about mood...
then, i would like to say, im not in da mood...hihihi
*oh gosh,y am i laughing?whilst i juz said im not in da mood?*

*am I craze??*
mayb~
*no u r not azie...*
ok cut it out u guys!

im not craze..but im juz a whole lot dissappointed..thats all...
why?only god knows why...
sum might say im quite arrogant and hardly make frenz with others...
but do they ask theirself why am i acting like one??
lemme tell u stg...

i loved making frenz...i dun mind making frenz with anybody...
but i hardly start a relationship first...
and when i finally enter univ life...my attitude start to change..
why?well everybody is changing...every second of his life...it is only either we realize it or not...
that is what my 'ANGEL' told me yesterday nite while he is trying to comfort me...
i used to be a very happy go lucky person..
u cn go and ask around or juz check back my wardrobe history of my life..
but suddenly i start to change..
once upon a time...when i go to a place called 'DUNIA KHAYALAN' (*HELLO AZIE..apa yg kau cuba nk mrepek ni?*)

*bca je la..x suka leh blah...

i met with a stag of animal...all of em are extremely cute u knw...but i was new there...so i kinda shy and afraid to go near them...afraid of em biting mayb...
but lucky fr me cuz there were 9 new frenz who were also lost in that fantasy world...
so we make frenz and always mingle together..
we tried to mingle with the animal in the jungle...but they were kindof abashed when they see us...so we tot that they were arrogant towards us...
well wrong body language i think...hihii

one day..we heard that one of em are making bad rumours about us...im so dumbstruck cuz we dun fight with anybody...we are not causing any trouble...
why the hell on earth that they were discriminating us???oh gosh..we are so sad and
dissappointed with em...

what happen next?

*to be continued larhh*

nantikan sambungan cerita dunia khayalan...
*apa aku nak merepek?tggu je la...