Voice of the unheard talker..

*continue*

after a long period of heartbreaking and disappointment...
finally im back again with new spirit and courage...
COURAGE???
well of cuz la...we need courage to move on aint we??
we need good positive spirit to be happy didnt we?

soo what past is past...

no more looking back...

rite now...im trying to be a new person...huh???

'NEW PERSON'???
hmmmm

during my short hols ( till now laa)...
i always keep to myself and kept thinking about everything dat had happen...
i know dat i should change myself...
i want to be sum1 new...
its not dat i hate my old self...

but HIJRAH...

from bad to sum1 good....
attitude...
emotionallly...
psychologically...
zahir dan batin...
wuhhh

tggi nya angan aku..
but dats my aim...
sumtimes, we dun need to b fren wif sum1 for too long cuz a good fren can easily b dtect when they always try their best to make you look best!

*ayat keling kah??*

ehem3..:D

few weeks before...
i used to go to one of my frenz and speak my mind out to em..
i was soo demn confused,angry and sad at that time...
and then the frenz of mine cool'ly (ada ka coolly??haha) told me and advice me the things dat for me its hard for sum1 else to say it out...
i kinda struck by his advice...but i take it slowly and try to think of its pro and cons...
well he is rite!what he said is totally rite!

after a awhile..
i kinda abashed towards him cuz he already saw me crying more than one...malu seh!
but everytime im in sooth(bak kta shakespeare) tba2 dia muncul cm chipsmore...
sumtimes i feel like kicking him away....EGO NEHhhh

but then...he didnt disturbed me till im ok...soo i kinda appreaciate his presence and the presence of another frenz of mine....there are two of em...

kiranya kt sni i nak give trillions of thanks to em la...
empunya diri mesti tahu kan...
kes kat M square..kes kat mna2 jugak la di msa saya jiwa kacau..hihi

what make me thinks of em???
bcuz!he went for hols and leave all the work to me alone without any news!! :((
nk bunuh dia!
the works reminds me of him...
when i tot of him...
i kept thinking about he said to me few weeks past...
all his advice....
sgt terharu...

as a friends...
saya sgt terharu atas teguran awak tu...thanks dude...
thanks atas teguran yg sgt lembut tp tepat ke hati...ouch!sakit!but u make me realized one thing about life...

i must change!change for good!leave everything!be the one...
with all ur advice, u make me see the world diffly...
with the helps from the blog url u gave me, i see thinks diffly...
thanks for ol doz things...
although it is still a long journey for me to change totally..
but i will try my best....i want to be among doz who hv been promised a heaven for em...
i want it...
god...plz help me..guide me to your light...

Berikan daku cahaya syurgamu...
di mana nur firdauz yg ku dmbakan bersama suci cintaNya...
Berkati aku dlm lindunganmu...
Jauhi aku dari godaan syaitan dan iblis...
Sesungguhnya manusia adalah lebih baik dr jin dan syaitan....

for god sake...take me to YOU...i want to be with you...