Tennis tourament

Tennis Tournament....

hihihihi

the tournament starts yesterday...
i play for single...
i lost to kak pah n li shan..
but i still won the rank when i manage to beat up anisah...

it was quite tight...
keep 'ducing'...
i hate it when i get duce....
cuz it makes the game longer....
and it is !@#$%^& tiring ...

i didnt expect to play today...
cuz they text me n said dat i'll be playing tomorrow..
but still, i went down to the court to be the photographer...

suddenly...they called me n asked me to play...
sabarrr je la...

i didnt bring my racket along...
and luckily i didnt wear jeans just now...
then when my times come...
i just borrow the racket from abg fahmi...
fuhh selamat~

1st place : kak pah vs me = 6-1
2nd place : li shan vs me = 6-4
3rd place :me vs anisah = 6-2

hihihi walaupun tmpt ke 3...
puas atiii maen~ :D
kira ok la tuuu...
syukur pada ALLAH swt yg memberi rezki.. :D


today, my game was better then yesterday...
i bring down the mp3 with me plus retro wasnt there...
so my focus falls to the game...
yesterday..
when he was there...
i cant focuz on the game...
i was so damn nervous and his presence make my knee shaking...
ngeee i hate it when i felt that way....
koya punya mamat...
i think..he also couldnt manage to stay focus on his game...
ngeee ntahla...
but i hate the felink soo demn much...
i dun want to feel dat way...
i think...i really need to send my heart to the workshop...hahahha

i feel the changes in wind~

today was a very devastating day...
sumhow my day has been make up by someone special in my life... :)
thy words..thy advice...and thy encouragement helps me a lot...

i'm in the team... *i guess*
i still feels half hearted to enter the team...
but somehow..
i chose to follow the flow...
with you as my booster...
i'll do it as long as u think i can do it... :)

*how am i suppoz to hate u when all i know...i juz loved you no matter what..and in all condition...*

may god bless u with happiness dear...
Let HIM do the rest of the job...
i'll be there for you in any circumstances to support you...
that's all i can do to show my sincerity..

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friendship sank...what?yes..its about you...

hmm

manusia hanya merancang..tuhan yang menentukan..
setiap perhubungan sentiasa akan ada ups n down...

i'm not goin to talk about my relationship with anybody...
i'm not in any relationship ok..
i want to talk about my besties....
besties saye ramaiiiiii~
more than 9 i think...
dan saya sayangggg smuanya....

its weird you know when u said that u loved your friends but you never tried to help them...
or doesnt want to hear your besties's advice...

hmm...
i'm not one of dozz..
i rather be hated by my besties than seeing them losing their path...
and i am being hated...
i'm doing for the goods of my besties...
but i think...it makes me look demn real bad...
he must have hate me till death do us apart...
is diz friendship is meant to be diz way??
i want to see you smiling again...
but you have to learn to see things from different perspective...
you can hate me...you can play shit with me...
but i know..you are far better than what you are now...
learn to hear others opinion..
although every words of yours has already break my heart...
but as a friends..i know you are not like that... despite me also trying to accept your words towards me..
i hope evrythings gonna be fine...
dont make me hate you too...
but if you really want me to hate you..
then do tell me...
i'll try to do so...
hmmm
action speaks louder than words..
your action already tells me evrything...
i can do shit to you..but i dont want to...
we're besties if you still remember...
or atleast a friend....anddddddddd
friend dont do shit to their friends...
things happen for reason...
think about it....dont blame others...maybe its a sign from god to let us learn something from what is happening now...
be positive...
dont hate changes...we might not be talking to each other or we might not even make eye contact anymore...
but know this fact...
i am there for you...to help you in any thingy that i can help you...
trust me...

retreat....?

D-I-S-A-P-P-O-I-N-T-E-D...!!

I was expecting for the selection to be today... penat je kumpul semangat turun court... Suddenly, the coach has changed the date... today will only be for men group... for LADIES...it will be tomorrow... screw it... how am i gonna make it tomorrow?? now i am in Dilemma! tomorrow... our cohort will be having cohort meeting with the respective lecturers... it will be hold at 2.30 pm... then my schedule continue with the main committee meeting with miss letch at 4pm..

then the coach asks me to be at the court at 4.45 pm tomorrow..

BUSTED!

how am i gonna make it?? what about ASAR?? aduyaiii...i really need somebody rite now ... i dunno which one to choose.. BOTB is compulsory.. while tennis is my passion.. I have quite a big responsibilities towards BOTB.. but im longing to play tennis.. should i juz pull myself out from the player selection?? sighh~only god knows what is best....

Mood : sangattt sedih dan konfius..

thornheart keeper

Digging the memories is not a good solution...
i thought i had already stored all the strength..
but looks like i'm wrong...
!@#$%^&

xde yang lebih menyakitkan
dari membina kegembiraan
di atas kelukaan dan kesedihan..
dan xde yang lebih menyesakkan jiwa
dari harus berpura-pura di dalam kehidupan..

Reality struck...ouChh!

My past is wut I luv,
the dearest of all..
if ever i can exchange it with my life..
i would like to..
However..fate is not mine..

When facing my present..
I realized..
Losing it is wut I hate,
For i have to bear all the consequences of the past
to the present...

Then..
I am afraid of the future,
Wondering whether i can live without it or not..

But,
Reality struck...
I'll nvr get back my past,
I'll nvr leave my present,
I'll have to face my future.....

Strong heart is all i need...

Tribute :To One of my institute fwenz for thy words...

Indahnya bahasa mengubat jiwa
kata tersusun merangka cerita
Dunia yang terHIJAB mengundang kisah
Menjadi tanda persahabatan kita..

*Bahasanya melambangkan pekerti*
*Puitisnya memberi kedamaian*
*Tangkasnya ibarat laksamana*
*Patuhnya menjanji syurga*

How it feels?

I dunno how to express my feeelings...

Diz one was written by a friends of mine from the FB...

but it exactly tells how i feels...

"Yang dahulu sudah berlalu, yang kini di hati-hati, yang dibendung meluap melaung, yang dicabar pasti berkobar, yang kemudian belum berkesudahan....."

i cant RUN..
i cant HIDE..
i cant IGNORE...
and i cant FORGET...
but it will always follows me like a SHADOW...
and i'm still searching for the INNER STRENGTH to be my firewall...
but the thought of missing something that i cant reach is devastating...
However...
New Year means..new lives..
begins with a happy thoughts..
forget all the sadness that 2009 have gave...
memories remains..
in the presence of future shadow...

TESL2 , MUED dan KSED

new years has already started...
jeng3...

tanpa disangka-sangka....

Tahun ni dan lebih tepat lagi sem ni...

aku dapat bekerjasama dengan besties2 ku untuk menjayakan Battle of The Bands....

*oOOps* x lupa jgak dak2 kelas TESL 2.... tanpa kerjasama diorg cane la nk hidup....

lately ni sgt2 la bz...sbbnye nk settle kn smua bnda2 rasmi untuk menjayakan Battle Of The Bands....

before this TESL2 hanya bekerjasama dgn MUED.....

tapi baru2 ni KSED menyatakan hasrat terpendam..*cewahhh*
hasrat ingin joint venture dgn kami untuk markah KOKO diorg....
hihihi

sgt kewl dpt berkenalan dgn rmai org dan x stick kepada hanya dak2 tesl je...

for the time being... i juz want to say dat im glad to have the chance working with anak pak man (http://anakazman.blogspot.com/) , R.Z.A.L (http://muzikska.blogspot.com/) , dan jugak pencari sejati (http://pencarisejati.blogspot.com/) dalam menjayakan projek ini....

Hope that project ni akan berjalan lancar....
*finger cross*

thz for all the cooperation u gave.... :D

dan yg ksiannya adalah anak pak man...beliau sgt bz sem ni sejak dilantik skali lg unt jadi ketua cohort.... terkejar sna dan terkejar sni..tak tergamak plak nk membebankn beliau....
nasib baik ada assistant organizer 2 dan 3... which are pencari sejati dan R.Z.A.L .... heheheh atleast for my class..Sue and I will do the thinking and anak pak man as decision maker...
hihih cian dia....org len rehat..dia terkejar sna sni urus hal cohort... naseb bek dia da besar..klau keding..lg aku kesian tgk..huhuhu

now dgn adanya incik R.Z.A.L dan pencari sejati, beban kerja telah berkurang sbb diorg sdia menadah padang bola untuk membantu... *demi markah Koko je tuhh*
hahahha x bwad keja kami repot... :P


pape pun...i enjoy working with u guys....