How it feels?

I dunno how to express my feeelings...

Diz one was written by a friends of mine from the FB...

but it exactly tells how i feels...

"Yang dahulu sudah berlalu, yang kini di hati-hati, yang dibendung meluap melaung, yang dicabar pasti berkobar, yang kemudian belum berkesudahan....."

i cant RUN..
i cant HIDE..
i cant IGNORE...
and i cant FORGET...
but it will always follows me like a SHADOW...
and i'm still searching for the INNER STRENGTH to be my firewall...
but the thought of missing something that i cant reach is devastating...
However...
New Year means..new lives..
begins with a happy thoughts..
forget all the sadness that 2009 have gave...
memories remains..
in the presence of future shadow...