IT HAS BEEN QUITE A LONG TIME...
yeah..it has been quite a long time since i last blogging.
not that i didnt visit my blog.but i just dont know what to write..
hmm my exam is just around the corner..
wish me luck babeh...
well,today our institute had held a sports day tournament..
we have to get up at 5am cuz we need to assemble at 6.30am.
demn early dude..
but i doesnt mind at all..
once a year aite?:D
ouh babe,there's daggers in my heart..
it keeps pounding fast and it send me to a new feeling.
how am i suppoz to respond to this feeling?
im juz doing it for fun...
but somehow,the feelings evolves...
what should i do?
i dun want to get into trouble AGAIN!
trouble and 'trouble' are not in my list rite now.
but i juz can't resists it.
i tried to act normal.
but i fall for thy smile...
sometimes i was wondering...
what gets into me?
what's sooo special bout thy person...
i dun find him that interesting or fits into my list.
attitude?hmmm *thinking*
physically alluring *gasp!* nehhh
thy smile *yeah!!!yeah!*
buttt is dat all??
izit enof?urghh i juz cant understand myself.
lantakla...TAWAKALTU A'LALLAH
anyway,i was having fun today at the sports day...
hihihih i am sooo mean..
zie..kenapalaaa kau kuat ngusik orang?
kau nak ngusik..tapi kau malu..
kau ni pelikklaa...
aduyaii...
good news... i was having fun watching him taking part in most of the event...
*gasp* he wass soo demn good and atheletic...cant be denied...even my rumate oso agrees with me..hakhak *evil laugh*
ijay told me about his participation in one of the events...
jeng2 >:)) my evil horn suddenly appears from nowhere...
*best ni ngusik...naseb kau laa blalang..spa suh pemalu sgt...*
monolog dalaman:
tapi tepk jugak la...
apa la kau zie..ada ke kau g kcau anak teruna org..
tebalik da ni...da xde keje laen nk usik anak org?
*laughing*
common babeh..tak kan nk usik anak beruang en...beh bek usik anak org..atleast x kna cop gila...haha
i do care bout people's perception or to be true, his perception of my way in introducing myself...well, i loved to be different...*kna tanggung lerr*
izit wrong to make fwenz?xkn?
usik x bermakna suka smpai thp nk bercinta en?
aku ske je usik nuaq,ijay...tp x becinta pun. *sorry nama naek* :D
bkn diorg je mangsa aku...
yana,ean,nine,abg hensem,hyst,sue,hafiz,emir,ekhsan,ody,faez,nuaq,rizal,yanie...
haa amek smua list..
smua mangsa aku nyakat..
pakcik2 aku pn kna taw..
tapiiiii
one thing yg bosan dgn typical men ni...
asal sembang sket mula la prasan nk ngorat..
eshk2 common babeh..
we are living in 21st century..
there's no such thing anymore...
and dont be prejudice towards women and dont practice inequality...*cewahhh ayat ss n es ni*
x smua perempuan sma meh...
hey buddy...i juz wanna be frenz with u..
tapi 19thn hidup di bumi ALLAH swt ni...
andalah manusia yang paaaaaaaaaling sombonk kot?and susah nk dibuat kawan...
slalunye klau zie sniri open nk be frenz with sum1...cepat je mesra..
but you??
ohhh my god..
anak raja pun x sombonk n susah unt didekati cam u...
aku yg pelik atau dia yg pelik?
eshk2
kee cara aku stat persahabatan salah?
aku x ske la old style nye nk bersahabat.
aku bukan pkai cara face to face jumpa saying 'hye!nak kenal leh?my name ...'
LAME gilerrr... i do it my STYLE...
u ni lack sense of humour ke ek?
liat tol...lagi liat...laaaaaaaagiiii nak kcau...:D
ada sethn g!kna rncg unt satu thn nye plan ni...
hak2
ok2 that's gud news..i was having fun teasing him..
what i did??ouhh let it be my secreto myamor... ;)
bad news!!!!
shoot man...
IDENTITI TERBONGKAR!!!
sshoot!!!shoot!!!shoot!!!shoot!!!
maluuuuuu seh....
dia da taw...mslhnya...dia pura2 tak tahu...
betul2 la kura2....
kura2 dalam perahu..pura2 xtahu...
pas tu mesti dia judge aku nya prangai...eshk2
xleh bwad gila2 da...malu2
aku keliru menjadi buntu...
eh tu lagu...:D
errr tp btol la..
aku keliru...
aku pun nk pura2 tak tahu dia tahu keee
aku bwad cam aku tahu dia tahu...
ngeeee
which one is more fun ek?
yang mna lebih risky and most important, its fun and can make a great memories???
hmmmm
what will happen if i tell him that i knew he knew who i am...?
a) the frenship wen dull?
b) i'll loz interest to make fwen with him?
c) we will stop being fwen?
d) we will pretend not to know each other again?
aaaa tu je ke ek consequences die?
wut if i pretend that i didnt know that he knew which one is me?
ngeeeeee
a) the games continue *of coz*
b) continue teasing each other?
c) he will continue 'evaluating' ma attitude? *x leh biar..*
d) he'll start making rumours bout me?? *ohhh no!!!mati die aku pancunk*
e) ada pendapat kah wahai saudara saudari pembaca??
sila tinggalkan pendapat...ngee
hidup tanpa teman ibarat hidup tanpa senyuman dan tangisan...
uuuuu~mendalam seh..
biar sakit,asalkan bermakna..
biar sedih asalkan bersama..
saat awan mendung berlalu..
kan ku peluk sang pelangi
hiasan tika kita bersuka...
frenz mean frenz babeh...xlebih x kurang...
senyum sokmo!
kdg2 ada hati yg terhibur dgn senyuman kita...
besarnya pahala buat org laen terhibur...
wlau teda niat..tapi andai gembira hadir mengganti duka...
we should embrace it
"sesungguhnya tidak beriman seseorang kamu yang tidak menyayangi manusia laen sperti saudaranya sendiri..."
no prejudice are aloud!
26 October 2009
11 October 2009
S-T-E-A-M-R-O-L-L-E-R-
right now, i am suppoz to do my reflection on ss video clips..
i already extract all the points but i kinda blank in writing the introduction...
hmm maybe i can put the videos in here one day...hiii
last three days...
i was in PULAKOR IPSAH...
it was fine and fun..
got the chance to mingle with the KPLI seniors..
first impressions, i thought they were the boring kindof person...
and me myself didnt make the first move to get to know them cuz of their origins..
zzz yeah2 i'm becoming prejudice..
terasa sangatttlaa fobia to get to know them cuz 99% of the KPLI in the KRS are SABAHANS..
i juz cant stand their dialect etc2...
it reminds me of stg that i dun want to remember nymore...
shoot man..it was hard for me...
tried to avoid them..
but they are too nice...
they always greet me and smile and jokes around...
it makes me feel ashamed of my attitude...
being snobbish without reason...
so, after putting up our tent, i went and help the seniors with the gadget and tried to
chit-chatting with em...it went fine..
we sat together and talking and joking to break the ice...and few minutes after that, i was
joined with sue and ridz..
The seniors are fun to be with...
they loved to tease and smile...
soo nice of them...
slowly,my tense starts to fly away...
at that time, there were kak marliana,kak nicolete,kak irene, jhony,alexson,whilethshire
and errr some more...can't remember their name plus dont know how to spell their name...
hihihih
the climax of our memories would be the STEAMROLLER!!
the one that i wont never forget...
hihihi
guess what??
all the KRS members were late to kuliah subuh at so called dewan...
in fact none of us go...hihihi
we just pray in our own tent.. :D
without any guilt ouh...
soooo,after mornink assembly, we were called by tuan nor azam and incik mat salleh i
think...x engat sudah spa yg ada d stu...
we were asked to run to the corner of the what we called 'lapangan kawat'...
and we were forced to lie on the ground with our full uniform...
hahah
and guess what happen next???
.................................
.......................
.................................
.......................
heee we were given static command while lying on the ground...rolling here and
there...backward left and right...though its quite hurt cuz all my hp's and mp3 was in my
pocket while i need to roll around, but it is fun...
then we were asked to fly at 30000 feet from air plane...
hahah juz 'FLY' in our mind meh...
hands and legs on the air...rolling left and right....
for about 50 m i can say?
dunno la...too many rolling here and there...
hihihii it was demn fun dude..
u wont get it anywhere else..
who was that lunatic who purposely want to lie on the tar and rolling2 like lil bugsy?
none aite??
:)) but we did...in teams yoo....
and its fun...
then the night before our rollersteam was on,
we need to prepare a performance...
and we comes out with tarian sumazau...
we change the lyrics and we dance...
some sang and some dance....
and i just want to help the dancers with the costumes...
i know how to dance that tarian la...
but i can't dance...
still felin fragile inside...
if i was in the dance line..
i am afraid i would burst out in front of the audience...
listening to the sabahan's chit chatting also already flew me farrr across the sea...
inikan pulak nak menari..
ayooyooo
nda tahan jua bha..
i was praying hard that afternoon that i can enjoy their performance that nite..
and luckily my pray is heard...
i was having fun watching them dancing that nite..
and i managed to seal my mind from wandering farr farrrrr away...
duduk diam2 dlm kotak minda..jgn merayap g peti minda yang laen..
and luckily..minda saya duduk diam2 cam tikus..
hakhakhak
i do feel lucky inside..
while i was on the bus heading to IPSAH...
ekhsan called me..
and finally i managed to spill everythings out...
naseb baek time tu berhenti rehat unt breakfast..
so i ran towards the nearest tree and hid there while talking to ekhsan...
tears rolling again i think but not so hard
finally i think i found the right person to talk to...
why??
because we were in the same boat..
he know how i felt cuz he used to face the same thing i am facing right now...
ekhsan advices at that time...
Xsan :zie,juz cried...for once..nanges puas2..pas tu jgn ingat dah...
kita xleh bwad papa...ekhsan tahu apa azie rasa..ekhsan pun kna yg sma at ur age...
kita hanya leh bersabar..kita x leh wat papa sebab dia xnk berusaha dan it involves
family...
azie : 'tapi san..sakit sgt nk hadapi..azie xtahu nak bangun balik cane..nk berguling pun
da x reti ni...rasa dia x sama cam yang biasa2..'
Xsan : *laughing* slowly la makcik...kwn2 ada..family kita ada...
azie : 'san da jumpa esya..dia baek...'
Xsan : 'hihi amek sethn dua gak zie...bukan senang...juz live ur life first...forget
everything..sabaq...tu ja yg kita leh bwad..'
hmmm then suddenly line hilang..so terputus perbualan...
but it was more than enof..cuz he knew how i felt...
and i already promised to ezyani and ekhsan...
i will forget everything and move on..
no more tears...
he doesnt deserve anything from me...
whatever his reasons are..he doesnt deserve me...
he already make a big mistakes by not being true to me...
true frenz will owez be there whenever we need em...
xsan,yanie,ody,faez,anware,hyst,abe ensem(rumate), and rmai g.
true frenz will owez hear u talk wlaupun we keep repeating the same things...
they will owez try to make us feel better inside out..
and for that,only god can repay ur deed..
i already extract all the points but i kinda blank in writing the introduction...
hmm maybe i can put the videos in here one day...hiii
last three days...
i was in PULAKOR IPSAH...
it was fine and fun..
got the chance to mingle with the KPLI seniors..
first impressions, i thought they were the boring kindof person...
and me myself didnt make the first move to get to know them cuz of their origins..
zzz yeah2 i'm becoming prejudice..
terasa sangatttlaa fobia to get to know them cuz 99% of the KPLI in the KRS are SABAHANS..
i juz cant stand their dialect etc2...
it reminds me of stg that i dun want to remember nymore...
shoot man..it was hard for me...
tried to avoid them..
but they are too nice...
they always greet me and smile and jokes around...
it makes me feel ashamed of my attitude...
being snobbish without reason...
so, after putting up our tent, i went and help the seniors with the gadget and tried to
chit-chatting with em...it went fine..
we sat together and talking and joking to break the ice...and few minutes after that, i was
joined with sue and ridz..
The seniors are fun to be with...
they loved to tease and smile...
soo nice of them...
slowly,my tense starts to fly away...
at that time, there were kak marliana,kak nicolete,kak irene, jhony,alexson,whilethshire
and errr some more...can't remember their name plus dont know how to spell their name...
hihihih
the climax of our memories would be the STEAMROLLER!!
the one that i wont never forget...
hihihi
guess what??
all the KRS members were late to kuliah subuh at so called dewan...
in fact none of us go...hihihi
we just pray in our own tent.. :D
without any guilt ouh...
soooo,after mornink assembly, we were called by tuan nor azam and incik mat salleh i
think...x engat sudah spa yg ada d stu...
we were asked to run to the corner of the what we called 'lapangan kawat'...
and we were forced to lie on the ground with our full uniform...
hahah
and guess what happen next???
.................................
.......................
.................................
.......................
heee we were given static command while lying on the ground...rolling here and
there...backward left and right...though its quite hurt cuz all my hp's and mp3 was in my
pocket while i need to roll around, but it is fun...
then we were asked to fly at 30000 feet from air plane...
hahah juz 'FLY' in our mind meh...
hands and legs on the air...rolling left and right....
for about 50 m i can say?
dunno la...too many rolling here and there...
hihihii it was demn fun dude..
u wont get it anywhere else..
who was that lunatic who purposely want to lie on the tar and rolling2 like lil bugsy?
none aite??
:)) but we did...in teams yoo....
and its fun...
then the night before our rollersteam was on,
we need to prepare a performance...
and we comes out with tarian sumazau...
we change the lyrics and we dance...
some sang and some dance....
and i just want to help the dancers with the costumes...
i know how to dance that tarian la...
but i can't dance...
still felin fragile inside...
if i was in the dance line..
i am afraid i would burst out in front of the audience...
listening to the sabahan's chit chatting also already flew me farrr across the sea...
inikan pulak nak menari..
ayooyooo
nda tahan jua bha..
i was praying hard that afternoon that i can enjoy their performance that nite..
and luckily my pray is heard...
i was having fun watching them dancing that nite..
and i managed to seal my mind from wandering farr farrrrr away...
duduk diam2 dlm kotak minda..jgn merayap g peti minda yang laen..
and luckily..minda saya duduk diam2 cam tikus..
hakhakhak
i do feel lucky inside..
while i was on the bus heading to IPSAH...
ekhsan called me..
and finally i managed to spill everythings out...
naseb baek time tu berhenti rehat unt breakfast..
so i ran towards the nearest tree and hid there while talking to ekhsan...
tears rolling again i think but not so hard
finally i think i found the right person to talk to...
why??
because we were in the same boat..
he know how i felt cuz he used to face the same thing i am facing right now...
ekhsan advices at that time...
Xsan :zie,juz cried...for once..nanges puas2..pas tu jgn ingat dah...
kita xleh bwad papa...ekhsan tahu apa azie rasa..ekhsan pun kna yg sma at ur age...
kita hanya leh bersabar..kita x leh wat papa sebab dia xnk berusaha dan it involves
family...
azie : 'tapi san..sakit sgt nk hadapi..azie xtahu nak bangun balik cane..nk berguling pun
da x reti ni...rasa dia x sama cam yang biasa2..'
Xsan : *laughing* slowly la makcik...kwn2 ada..family kita ada...
azie : 'san da jumpa esya..dia baek...'
Xsan : 'hihi amek sethn dua gak zie...bukan senang...juz live ur life first...forget
everything..sabaq...tu ja yg kita leh bwad..'
hmmm then suddenly line hilang..so terputus perbualan...
but it was more than enof..cuz he knew how i felt...
and i already promised to ezyani and ekhsan...
i will forget everything and move on..
no more tears...
he doesnt deserve anything from me...
whatever his reasons are..he doesnt deserve me...
he already make a big mistakes by not being true to me...
true frenz will owez be there whenever we need em...
xsan,yanie,ody,faez,anware,hyst,abe ensem(rumate), and rmai g.
true frenz will owez hear u talk wlaupun we keep repeating the same things...
they will owez try to make us feel better inside out..
and for that,only god can repay ur deed..
04 October 2009
bila rasaku ini rasamu
Bila rasaku ini rasa mu...
Benci aku benci..
sakitnya aku membenci kamu..
sakit lagi menyintai kamu...
ada sahabat yang berkata..
andai kita ikhlas merindu...
hati yang satu lagi juga akan merindu...
masih ada connection kah?
bicara dengan sahabat baru itu membuatkan jiwa ku sedikit bergetar...
rasa yang aku takut seolah-olah datang kembali..
kalau saja ada serigala untuk menghalau rasa itu...
mungkin hati akan lebih tenang...
pernah dulu aku selesa dengan getaran yang hadir..
pernah saja aku mengharapkan getaran itu untuk selamanya...
tapi sekarang aku x tahu...
aku nak..tapi bukan begini caranya..
rasa getar yang manis tetapi aku terasa takut untuk merasai nikmatnya...
Aku x sabar untuk mengasingkan diri..
hanya tinggal beberapa hari sebelum pergi dari dunia yang bising ini..
dah lama aku x mengadap bintang dan berbicara dengan alam..
rinduuunya...
biar saja bintang jadi ganti kalau itu bisa mengubat luka di hati...
ku harapkan pemergian kali ini dapat memberi ketenangan saat aku dan bintang berbicara...
tuhan..berikan aku yang terbaik...dan jauhkan aku dari perkara buruk yg x di ingini...
Benci aku benci..
sakitnya aku membenci kamu..
sakit lagi menyintai kamu...
ada sahabat yang berkata..
andai kita ikhlas merindu...
hati yang satu lagi juga akan merindu...
masih ada connection kah?
bicara dengan sahabat baru itu membuatkan jiwa ku sedikit bergetar...
rasa yang aku takut seolah-olah datang kembali..
kalau saja ada serigala untuk menghalau rasa itu...
mungkin hati akan lebih tenang...
pernah dulu aku selesa dengan getaran yang hadir..
pernah saja aku mengharapkan getaran itu untuk selamanya...
tapi sekarang aku x tahu...
aku nak..tapi bukan begini caranya..
rasa getar yang manis tetapi aku terasa takut untuk merasai nikmatnya...
Aku x sabar untuk mengasingkan diri..
hanya tinggal beberapa hari sebelum pergi dari dunia yang bising ini..
dah lama aku x mengadap bintang dan berbicara dengan alam..
rinduuunya...
biar saja bintang jadi ganti kalau itu bisa mengubat luka di hati...
ku harapkan pemergian kali ini dapat memberi ketenangan saat aku dan bintang berbicara...
tuhan..berikan aku yang terbaik...dan jauhkan aku dari perkara buruk yg x di ingini...
sesuci embun kah?
3 oktober membawa sedikit perubahan dalam hidupku...
Aku tidak mencari mereka...
mereka yang mencari aku...
Aku tidak berusaha mencari kebenaran...
tetapi KEBENARAN yang datang kepadaku...
Aku tidak menolak..aku juga tidak menerima...
Cuba untuk redha dan yakin dengan hikmah tuhan...
Bukan ingin mencari salahnya...
Tetapi lagi aku mengetahui kisah sebelum dan selepas..
Aku lebih tenang..sebab ia mampu membuatkan ku terbang lebih jauh...
saat terpandangkan dashboard yang berlatarkan rama-rama..
aku juga terasa seperti ingin terbang tinggi dan bersinar seperti rama2...
terbang tanpa rasa kecewa.
walaupun jauh di sudut hati..aku sangat kecewa dgn sikapnya...
tidakkah dia pkirkan andai sgala yang terjadi ini berlaku kepada ibu dan kakaknya?
tiada rasakah di hatinya?
bayangkan sja andai kakak dan ibunya diperlakukan seperti itu..
tidakkah dia kecewa melihat kekecewaan mereka?
aku bersedih unt iera,ain,kakaknya dan ibunya serta semua wanita yang mngenalinya..
Sebagai manusia..aku hanya mampu menasihati..
tapi aku x daya mengubahnya...
sebagai manusia...jangan lah kita hanya mengkritik manusia lain..Andai ada salah di pihaknya...
Berusahalah untuk mengubah dan menyedarkan mereka...
bertindak dengan anggota,lisan dan hati...
Selemah-lemah iman adalah mengingkar dgn hati...
selagi termampu,selamatkan lah insan yang kita sayangi...
Tidak beriman seseorang manusia andai ia tidak menyayangi manusia lain seperti dia menyayangi dirinya sendiri...
Hati,tawakal dan bersabarlah..
Akan ku titipkan doa agar kau mnyedari kesilapan yang kau dah lakukan..
tidak hina seseorang itu andai dia meminta maaf dan mnyedari kesilapannya..
malah dia akn disanjung tinggi kerana kejujurannya...
Yakin,Berusaha,Bertawakal dan pasrah dengan ketentuan tuhan..
Semoga tuhan merahmati kalian...
Aku tidak mencari mereka...
mereka yang mencari aku...
Aku tidak berusaha mencari kebenaran...
tetapi KEBENARAN yang datang kepadaku...
Aku tidak menolak..aku juga tidak menerima...
Cuba untuk redha dan yakin dengan hikmah tuhan...
Bukan ingin mencari salahnya...
Tetapi lagi aku mengetahui kisah sebelum dan selepas..
Aku lebih tenang..sebab ia mampu membuatkan ku terbang lebih jauh...
saat terpandangkan dashboard yang berlatarkan rama-rama..
aku juga terasa seperti ingin terbang tinggi dan bersinar seperti rama2...
terbang tanpa rasa kecewa.
walaupun jauh di sudut hati..aku sangat kecewa dgn sikapnya...
tidakkah dia pkirkan andai sgala yang terjadi ini berlaku kepada ibu dan kakaknya?
tiada rasakah di hatinya?
bayangkan sja andai kakak dan ibunya diperlakukan seperti itu..
tidakkah dia kecewa melihat kekecewaan mereka?
aku bersedih unt iera,ain,kakaknya dan ibunya serta semua wanita yang mngenalinya..
Sebagai manusia..aku hanya mampu menasihati..
tapi aku x daya mengubahnya...
sebagai manusia...jangan lah kita hanya mengkritik manusia lain..Andai ada salah di pihaknya...
Berusahalah untuk mengubah dan menyedarkan mereka...
bertindak dengan anggota,lisan dan hati...
Selemah-lemah iman adalah mengingkar dgn hati...
selagi termampu,selamatkan lah insan yang kita sayangi...
Tidak beriman seseorang manusia andai ia tidak menyayangi manusia lain seperti dia menyayangi dirinya sendiri...
Hati,tawakal dan bersabarlah..
Akan ku titipkan doa agar kau mnyedari kesilapan yang kau dah lakukan..
tidak hina seseorang itu andai dia meminta maaf dan mnyedari kesilapannya..
malah dia akn disanjung tinggi kerana kejujurannya...
Yakin,Berusaha,Bertawakal dan pasrah dengan ketentuan tuhan..
Semoga tuhan merahmati kalian...
03 October 2009
wasiat ke
'music kiss my life..you are my sweetest nightingale but i can't hear you here no more...'
i had a dream..
once that bother me a lot..
feeling dumbsy for awhile after waking up...
*WTH was i dreamin just now??!!*
i took 30 min to generate my mind...
it affected me...
i'm afraid if it turn to reality..
cuz if it happen,i dont know how to deal with it...
i wish i can kill...
but in the dreams..me myself was just standing at the corner and stare in disbelief...
9o'clock....(p.m)
hyst,honey,abe ensem,ulwise and me went to LIVERPOOL at batu lancang..
suddenly feeling like eating its nasi lemak..
we choosed to sit at the open place/air...
nice weather tonite..
but the moon is blocked by the cloud...
somehow,while i was bz gorging myself...
my head tilt up...
where's the star??
*hmm there it is..*
there's only one star visible to my sight...
solemnity feel my lungs...
i dun know what i feel..
afraid..angry...sad...annoyed..hatred...and loved are all combined together...
today, i managed to finish my novel written by Xarine - bintang-bintang ke syurga...
lovey-dovey islamic novel...it helps me a lot in 'uslah-ing' myself and 'usrah-ing' my self... (apa punya bahasa la aku bedal en..:D)
sangat best...novel tu la...
tapi bila baca novel tu..
ada satu rasa yang hadir.
yang buat aku takut..
tatawu nk ckp cane..
rasa tu bergetar hebat tatkala baris2 ayat dalam novel tu aku baca...
adakah ini jawapan kepada istikharah ku?
wallahualam..
the story,the characters,the message,the characteristics and the fate that lies beyond...
make me feel struck by the sentence...
aku x bersedia lagi..
aku cuak gila *h1n1* skang ni...
aku x berani nak mengambil risiko..
tapi aku takut..
sangat2 takut...
hati tetiba gelisah x sudah smpaiii skang...
masa MARD call,rasa tenang sket sbb terlari perhatian....
tapi skang hati aku kembali rasa berdebar2...
seperti ada something yang akan terjadi...
aku takut giler...
kalau jadi pape kt aku..
tolong repot polis ek..
huhuhu
i had a dream..
once that bother me a lot..
feeling dumbsy for awhile after waking up...
*WTH was i dreamin just now??!!*
i took 30 min to generate my mind...
it affected me...
i'm afraid if it turn to reality..
cuz if it happen,i dont know how to deal with it...
i wish i can kill...
but in the dreams..me myself was just standing at the corner and stare in disbelief...
9o'clock....(p.m)
hyst,honey,abe ensem,ulwise and me went to LIVERPOOL at batu lancang..
suddenly feeling like eating its nasi lemak..
we choosed to sit at the open place/air...
nice weather tonite..
but the moon is blocked by the cloud...
somehow,while i was bz gorging myself...
my head tilt up...
where's the star??
*hmm there it is..*
there's only one star visible to my sight...
solemnity feel my lungs...
i dun know what i feel..
afraid..angry...sad...annoyed..hatred...and loved are all combined together...
today, i managed to finish my novel written by Xarine - bintang-bintang ke syurga...
lovey-dovey islamic novel...it helps me a lot in 'uslah-ing' myself and 'usrah-ing' my self... (apa punya bahasa la aku bedal en..:D)
sangat best...novel tu la...
tapi bila baca novel tu..
ada satu rasa yang hadir.
yang buat aku takut..
tatawu nk ckp cane..
rasa tu bergetar hebat tatkala baris2 ayat dalam novel tu aku baca...
adakah ini jawapan kepada istikharah ku?
wallahualam..
the story,the characters,the message,the characteristics and the fate that lies beyond...
make me feel struck by the sentence...
aku x bersedia lagi..
aku cuak gila *h1n1* skang ni...
aku x berani nak mengambil risiko..
tapi aku takut..
sangat2 takut...
hati tetiba gelisah x sudah smpaiii skang...
masa MARD call,rasa tenang sket sbb terlari perhatian....
tapi skang hati aku kembali rasa berdebar2...
seperti ada something yang akan terjadi...
aku takut giler...
kalau jadi pape kt aku..
tolong repot polis ek..
huhuhu
02 October 2009
Tribute tribunal..hakhak
Salam Ukhuwah dan moga sesiapa yang membaca entry ku kali ini dilimpahi rahmat dan kasih sayang Allah...
Rasanya sekarang aku da okey sket kot...
x rasa sakit sangat...
Kena yakin dengan Allah dan sentiasa bersangka baik...
Besar hikmah orang yang bersabar..
tika aku dilambung badai..
ada beberapa orang sahabat yang setia memberi sokongan moral..
oh ya..my entry today will be about my friends..
a little tribute to them..
nutink much i can do to show my appreciation right?
:)
xnk puji diorg ni sgt2..kang kembang x kempis..
tapi sesungguhnya..
these guys have been with me through ups and down...
Sabar mendengar dan melayan karenah aku..
kadang2..diorg xtaw aku nga tensyen..
tapi diorg pandai bwad lawak kasi aku happy...
i loved them soo much...
ya know wut?kdg2 kita x perlukan org unt mengetahui apa mslh kita..tp ckupla andai kawan itu sudi meluangkan masa bersama dan berkongsi kegembiraan yang dia ada dan menderma sket kegembiraan dia tu kt kita...
cuba pk?? :D
I start with the Oldest buddy..:D
*tgh pk spe g yg azie lupa nk mention...hmmm pape pun,korang tahu smada korang bermakna atau x dlm hidup azie..azie saaaayangg korang....
korang tahu x??korang xkn dapat dicarik ganti...xleh dijual beli...korang saaaaangat special...in your own way of coz....klau xde korang,my life would be soooooooo demn dull lah...tq ek?sbb sudi kawan ngan azie..trima azie seadanya..always be there during ups n down...
*azie ada rindu someone lagi..farah a.k.a orange_girl and lupa plak...adik ku shahrul izwan....heeee and haaa KC,ANISDZ,SHED,CIK MARD,REMY,MARD N rmai sgt klau nk mention ni..:D live well k kawan2?saaaayang korang sgt2..."
Rasanya sekarang aku da okey sket kot...
x rasa sakit sangat...
Kena yakin dengan Allah dan sentiasa bersangka baik...
Besar hikmah orang yang bersabar..
tika aku dilambung badai..
ada beberapa orang sahabat yang setia memberi sokongan moral..
oh ya..my entry today will be about my friends..
a little tribute to them..
nutink much i can do to show my appreciation right?
:)
xnk puji diorg ni sgt2..kang kembang x kempis..
tapi sesungguhnya..
these guys have been with me through ups and down...
Sabar mendengar dan melayan karenah aku..
kadang2..diorg xtaw aku nga tensyen..
tapi diorg pandai bwad lawak kasi aku happy...
i loved them soo much...
ya know wut?kdg2 kita x perlukan org unt mengetahui apa mslh kita..tp ckupla andai kawan itu sudi meluangkan masa bersama dan berkongsi kegembiraan yang dia ada dan menderma sket kegembiraan dia tu kt kita...
cuba pk?? :D
I start with the Oldest buddy..:D
Yanie
sayang,wlaupun ang dgn aku jarang berjumpa walau rumah sekangkang kera je..tapi ang tetap kawan baik aku dunia akhirat lah..x contact,x makna aku lupa..xkn dpt dilupai..
being with u, i feel safe and sound...no need to brag..u know how to sooth me..with your attention,i feel your love to me..(as fren la..we're GIRL friends..ahakz)
Nine
hey cik lawyer..anda seorang yang sangat2 positif..i missed u soo demn much..whenever i feel down,i wish you're near..to motivate me and make jokes...rinduuu sgt2 kt u...teruskan bersikap positif...jadi laen dr yg laen..terlalu ramai yang bersikap negatif...kehadiran u dapat memberi impak yang besar terhadap org skeliling taw..sayanggg ang...
Nik
Nikkk...walau kita cam anjing ngan kuceng..the clashh between account and english...tp lepak ngan ang mmg best..x lengkap idop klau xleh kcau idop ang..i missed our old times...do missed me too sahabat.. ;)
Hafiz
hey sahabat...kita kenal da lma..kita hanya virtual bestfren..we only meet after six years aite?but u r my bestfren..sapa ckp klau berbeza jantina xleh jd bestfren?asalkan kita tetapkan niat..insyaallah dilindungi pe...azie sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan Hafiz dengan insan terchenta.. :) Thz sbb bila azie tensyen ke ape ke..hafiz ngan emir slalu teman azie mkn,minum,lepak...thz for being very sporting... :)
Ody
ohhh incik ody...Get well soon ek?jangan rabakkan tgn anda lagi...klau anda xcident sy risau..:( spe nk mainkan gitar kt sy lgi...hihihi anda abg terbest lah incik ody...sporting and rock!klaka tahap asbestos...klau stress,carik je anda and faiz..kompem mengalir air mata gelak...hakhak tapi klau carik anda time happy2...lagi menggila la jadiknya..jawabnya x sudah2 la kita berYM and bergayut...:D ngee thz ek for being my frenz..thz sudi mainkan lagu2 ciptaan anda dan sudi menjadikan saya sebgai pendengar pilihan..ceewahh!ahakz!lagu2 anda yang metal tu mampu menenangkn jiwa gak sbnrnya..anda sgt berbakat... hope that god bless u.. :) smoga berjaya dalam kerjaya anda dan minat anda..AND!!! thz sebab sudi berjaga just unt kejut azie sahur walaupun baru pas accident..tacing ah..u ah buat i tacing..tp u rox bro..
Faiz
faizzz...ko la ikanbrutal89 yg sukaaa sgt nyakat aku en...sehari x usik aku..bukan kau la tu...we go through thick and thin, ups n down... kita gaduh,kita baik..kita benci..kita sayang...ahakz!sayang kawan la en..ko klau x sayang aku,tu maknanya ko carik penyakit kudis x pun patah tulang temulang...hak2..aku dgn kau...plg best sbb otak kau gila2..cam tuan dia ek..senteng 180 darjah...hikhik tapi yer ar..ko pun antara sahabat terbaik aku ada...slalu support aku dgn idea2 gila aku.layan pangai aku en..aku geram gak ngan ko..tp ko bestfren aku..lma mna nk benci en.. :D live well faiz... remember ALLAH...never give up on HIM...Ingat,besar hikmah orang yang bersabar dgn dugaan yang Allah hamparkan...
Tuhan uji,tuhan sayang taw?
Ekhsan
pakcikk...pakcik ah pakcik yang paling kewl stakat ni...da lah pangkat pakcik...tapi otak pun sma gilaa dgn ody and faiz...pakcik punya nasihat dan motivation sgt bernilai ouh...pakcik cam menggantikan nine dlm hidup sy...bila smbg ngan pakcik...hilang rasa sedih...:D moga pakcik berbahagia dgn Esya...
Anware
kita kawan..kita spupu...tu yg best...when u dont know where to turn to,u always have ur family by yourside... tq hadi...for lending your ear,your heart and anything lah..hak2...kau xde la kewl sgt...:P biasa2 je...ko agak seyes..tp dlm seyes ada laaa jugak gila2 kau tu.. :D live well...learn to make decision eh?sayang kau...
Hyst
u r like my big sista...terlalu caring and passionate...dan gila2..hiiii mayb sbb kita sama2 anak tunggal...kita paham perasaan masing2....
u pun cam menggantikan nine dlm my life..always motivate me and make me realize the god presencement.. (err btol ke?:D) bila dgn kak hyst, azie akan tersedar dari duka yang larut...azie jadi kuat balik..dgn kak hyst, azie yakin azie perlu jadik azie yang dulu supaya xda sapa sakitkan azie lagi...kita sama2 rasa kekecewaan dan kesedihan dan kegembiraan yang sama walau cerita berbeza...jadi kita tahu kenapa kita perlu jadik gtu... tq sbb care psl azie....
Rizal
ijay...ko pun kwn bek aku seh...wlaupun ko bz kalah PM en...aku salute ko la...byk2 bersabar taw?tuhan saaaaayang ijay..tuhan communicate dgn kita melalui ujian dan dugaan...maka,berbahagialah hati...lepak ngan ko,azie rasa tenang and santai..mayb sbb kita da kenal lama..n da biasa lepak sama2 since UiTM en...i missed dat moment la buddy...bila tensyen blaja ke bosan ke ape ke...kita beli eskrem lepak2..cam bebudak..tapi rasa bebas and alive...
wahh tacing plak...ko jgn nanges plak ek? ;)
Ean
ean pun kawan bek azie..tp kita da lma x contact...bz ek?hope ean sihat2 dan baek2 aje...live well...azie x penah lupa ean..cuma kesibukan menjadi hijab antara kita... :( live well jugak unt ean...
Yana
yanaaaa...rindu yana..dlu yana rajin msg n smbg ngan azie..skang senyap sepi....yana blaja kt ne skang agknye en?azie x penah lupa yana... hope yana pun x lupa azie..
abg arn
ohhh bro...lu maintain rock and kewl...big bro paling sporting...nutink to talk..u know how i appreciate your presence,adik's and kakak's in my life...be a manusia...berjaya kerana allah taala...da berjaya jgn lupa blanja...blanja mama skali ngan tok pah..kita lepak2 bwad bbq unt next bday kita.. :D
Sue
terforward bwh plak nma sue..heheh sorry....sue kwn baek azie jugak..sue,hyst and anware yg slalu hold azie on the ground....syggg korang....klau xde su...mmg bosan hidup azie..xde sape nk lwn angkat kening...xde sape nk lawan gado2 usik2 da dgn azie...:D live well.. moga berbahagia ngan bagan...
sayang,wlaupun ang dgn aku jarang berjumpa walau rumah sekangkang kera je..tapi ang tetap kawan baik aku dunia akhirat lah..x contact,x makna aku lupa..xkn dpt dilupai..
being with u, i feel safe and sound...no need to brag..u know how to sooth me..with your attention,i feel your love to me..(as fren la..we're GIRL friends..ahakz)
Nine
hey cik lawyer..anda seorang yang sangat2 positif..i missed u soo demn much..whenever i feel down,i wish you're near..to motivate me and make jokes...rinduuu sgt2 kt u...teruskan bersikap positif...jadi laen dr yg laen..terlalu ramai yang bersikap negatif...kehadiran u dapat memberi impak yang besar terhadap org skeliling taw..sayanggg ang...
Nik
Nikkk...walau kita cam anjing ngan kuceng..the clashh between account and english...tp lepak ngan ang mmg best..x lengkap idop klau xleh kcau idop ang..i missed our old times...do missed me too sahabat.. ;)
Hafiz
hey sahabat...kita kenal da lma..kita hanya virtual bestfren..we only meet after six years aite?but u r my bestfren..sapa ckp klau berbeza jantina xleh jd bestfren?asalkan kita tetapkan niat..insyaallah dilindungi pe...azie sentiasa doakan kebahagiaan Hafiz dengan insan terchenta.. :) Thz sbb bila azie tensyen ke ape ke..hafiz ngan emir slalu teman azie mkn,minum,lepak...thz for being very sporting... :)
Ody
ohhh incik ody...Get well soon ek?jangan rabakkan tgn anda lagi...klau anda xcident sy risau..:( spe nk mainkan gitar kt sy lgi...hihihi anda abg terbest lah incik ody...sporting and rock!klaka tahap asbestos...klau stress,carik je anda and faiz..kompem mengalir air mata gelak...hakhak tapi klau carik anda time happy2...lagi menggila la jadiknya..jawabnya x sudah2 la kita berYM and bergayut...:D ngee thz ek for being my frenz..thz sudi mainkan lagu2 ciptaan anda dan sudi menjadikan saya sebgai pendengar pilihan..ceewahh!ahakz!lagu2 anda yang metal tu mampu menenangkn jiwa gak sbnrnya..anda sgt berbakat... hope that god bless u.. :) smoga berjaya dalam kerjaya anda dan minat anda..AND!!! thz sebab sudi berjaga just unt kejut azie sahur walaupun baru pas accident..tacing ah..u ah buat i tacing..tp u rox bro..
Faiz
faizzz...ko la ikanbrutal89 yg sukaaa sgt nyakat aku en...sehari x usik aku..bukan kau la tu...we go through thick and thin, ups n down... kita gaduh,kita baik..kita benci..kita sayang...ahakz!sayang kawan la en..ko klau x sayang aku,tu maknanya ko carik penyakit kudis x pun patah tulang temulang...hak2..aku dgn kau...plg best sbb otak kau gila2..cam tuan dia ek..senteng 180 darjah...hikhik tapi yer ar..ko pun antara sahabat terbaik aku ada...slalu support aku dgn idea2 gila aku.layan pangai aku en..aku geram gak ngan ko..tp ko bestfren aku..lma mna nk benci en.. :D live well faiz... remember ALLAH...never give up on HIM...Ingat,besar hikmah orang yang bersabar dgn dugaan yang Allah hamparkan...
Tuhan uji,tuhan sayang taw?
Ekhsan
pakcikk...pakcik ah pakcik yang paling kewl stakat ni...da lah pangkat pakcik...tapi otak pun sma gilaa dgn ody and faiz...pakcik punya nasihat dan motivation sgt bernilai ouh...pakcik cam menggantikan nine dlm hidup sy...bila smbg ngan pakcik...hilang rasa sedih...:D moga pakcik berbahagia dgn Esya...
Anware
kita kawan..kita spupu...tu yg best...when u dont know where to turn to,u always have ur family by yourside... tq hadi...for lending your ear,your heart and anything lah..hak2...kau xde la kewl sgt...:P biasa2 je...ko agak seyes..tp dlm seyes ada laaa jugak gila2 kau tu.. :D live well...learn to make decision eh?sayang kau...
Hyst
u r like my big sista...terlalu caring and passionate...dan gila2..hiiii mayb sbb kita sama2 anak tunggal...kita paham perasaan masing2....
u pun cam menggantikan nine dlm my life..always motivate me and make me realize the god presencement.. (err btol ke?:D) bila dgn kak hyst, azie akan tersedar dari duka yang larut...azie jadi kuat balik..dgn kak hyst, azie yakin azie perlu jadik azie yang dulu supaya xda sapa sakitkan azie lagi...kita sama2 rasa kekecewaan dan kesedihan dan kegembiraan yang sama walau cerita berbeza...jadi kita tahu kenapa kita perlu jadik gtu... tq sbb care psl azie....
Rizal
ijay...ko pun kwn bek aku seh...wlaupun ko bz kalah PM en...aku salute ko la...byk2 bersabar taw?tuhan saaaaayang ijay..tuhan communicate dgn kita melalui ujian dan dugaan...maka,berbahagialah hati...lepak ngan ko,azie rasa tenang and santai..mayb sbb kita da kenal lama..n da biasa lepak sama2 since UiTM en...i missed dat moment la buddy...bila tensyen blaja ke bosan ke ape ke...kita beli eskrem lepak2..cam bebudak..tapi rasa bebas and alive...
wahh tacing plak...ko jgn nanges plak ek? ;)
Ean
ean pun kawan bek azie..tp kita da lma x contact...bz ek?hope ean sihat2 dan baek2 aje...live well...azie x penah lupa ean..cuma kesibukan menjadi hijab antara kita... :( live well jugak unt ean...
Yana
yanaaaa...rindu yana..dlu yana rajin msg n smbg ngan azie..skang senyap sepi....yana blaja kt ne skang agknye en?azie x penah lupa yana... hope yana pun x lupa azie..
abg arn
ohhh bro...lu maintain rock and kewl...big bro paling sporting...nutink to talk..u know how i appreciate your presence,adik's and kakak's in my life...be a manusia...berjaya kerana allah taala...da berjaya jgn lupa blanja...blanja mama skali ngan tok pah..kita lepak2 bwad bbq unt next bday kita.. :D
Sue
terforward bwh plak nma sue..heheh sorry....sue kwn baek azie jugak..sue,hyst and anware yg slalu hold azie on the ground....syggg korang....klau xde su...mmg bosan hidup azie..xde sape nk lwn angkat kening...xde sape nk lawan gado2 usik2 da dgn azie...:D live well.. moga berbahagia ngan bagan...
*tgh pk spe g yg azie lupa nk mention...hmmm pape pun,korang tahu smada korang bermakna atau x dlm hidup azie..azie saaaayangg korang....
korang tahu x??korang xkn dapat dicarik ganti...xleh dijual beli...korang saaaaangat special...in your own way of coz....klau xde korang,my life would be soooooooo demn dull lah...tq ek?sbb sudi kawan ngan azie..trima azie seadanya..always be there during ups n down...
*azie ada rindu someone lagi..farah a.k.a orange_girl and lupa plak...adik ku shahrul izwan....heeee and haaa KC,ANISDZ,SHED,CIK MARD,REMY,MARD N rmai sgt klau nk mention ni..:D live well k kawan2?saaaayang korang sgt2..."
01 October 2009
ayat klaka tahap bumper raya
Noodle station - lepas tensyen..
"e...penat la nk ckp byk...klau nak,amek la..."
tergelak aku bca status di ym dia...
bajet aku hadap sgt dkt manusia yang x tepati janji?
yang x reti menghargai org??
g brambus ah..
sh** giler...
klau hulur 10 org gtu,sket pun aku x heran la..
ye sy dgn sni...dgn rendah hatinya..
sy ngaku sy silap menilai manusia..
kita perlu berbaik sangka..
tapi baik sangka sangat2 pun makan diri jugak..
human can't be trusted..especially men!
blah ah...
"e...penat la nk ckp byk...klau nak,amek la..."
tergelak aku bca status di ym dia...
bajet aku hadap sgt dkt manusia yang x tepati janji?
yang x reti menghargai org??
g brambus ah..
sh** giler...
klau hulur 10 org gtu,sket pun aku x heran la..
ye sy dgn sni...dgn rendah hatinya..
sy ngaku sy silap menilai manusia..
kita perlu berbaik sangka..
tapi baik sangka sangat2 pun makan diri jugak..
human can't be trusted..especially men!
blah ah...
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