14 November 2010

Back!!!

I'm back!!! :)
huhuhu
i'm not feeling very well..

but it's okay..
ujian susah senang,sakit dan sihat adalah tanda allah sayang :)

hmmmm

i really have lotsa things to be said..
but i dunno which one to start first..
well as all of u know..
i'm not feeling very well..

but i still remember my promise with you...
Insyaallah i'll tell you guys about it in the next2 entry okeh?? :D

rite now..
there is someone that is playing around,under,on,up,out,in (ape lagi preposition yg ada?sila pk2kan) in my mind...
i want to make this entry short and simple..
my mind couldnt work and process any linguistic skills to make complex sentences...

one thing that i've been thinking rite now..
i've been giving hint and clues all this time...
no wonders it does not work..
i should be frank and tell what my heart holds all this time...

but honestly...i am afraid to do so..

i believes in Allah..
and i believes,the chances will come if it is meant for me..and.......
if it wasnt..

i should be grateful and verily to Allah for all that happens....
i really want to speak my heart out..
but i am afraid with the response...
somehow i do believes, we still have the sixth sense connections.

listen to my heart cuz i dun have the courage to speak your language..

8 comments:

ahsfantasy24 said...

not stop loving,
juz stop showing,

hee i like..!
^^,

EL90 said...

:)sumtimes it is better if we stop showing it if it is for others good....

Ilham Jamil said...

bebeh. awak akan terus afraid selagi awak tak bgtau.

terima atau tolak, itu hak dia. hak kita adalah untuk mengikut kata hati sendiri.

bila dah bagitau perkara sebenar, perasaan lapang tak tau nak cakap. walaupun sakit tak hengat.

cuma dari pengalaman lepas yg mengajar sy menjadi kuat pada hari ini.

^^

EL90 said...

xtaw la sma da diz 'hesitatedness' is bcuz i am feeling afraid or wut..huk2
maybe part of this hesitation is due to my ego kot..my pride..huhuhu
let us just wait and see..lagipun unt approach dan baiki balik keadaan like before pda masa skrang *rite now* is not a good idea...i wanna have fun first... XD i am afraid if i am rushing to settle stuffs with him.it will ruin my long term plan XD gilakk laa :P

Ilham Jamil said...

tapi betul. bila kita try approach, effect yang akan dtg sgt besar. tak terdaya nak hadapi.

dan bila kita dah pernah hadapi, kita akan bersyukur sebab kita diberi peluang untuk tahu kelemahan diri :)

^^

EL90 said...

heheh i want him but i dont want him yet...
i'm hesitating bcuz i am afraid if we're back together, things will get more complicated..
i'll be far away from M'sia in few months...
if we're meant to be together, then we cant hide from each other aite...
walau sejauh mana kami lari from each other pun...
kalau idok,den cari yg mata biru je nant kt oz...kih3 XD

p/s:consider urself lucky...he's a good man and he doesnt want to hurt you further...
unlike mine,kami dua2 org tersilap penilaian... ^^

Ilham Jamil said...

ehem. tahu ceritaa ka? yup. he's a good man. and I'm accepting the fact that we could never be together :')

tak apa. pelan pelan kayuh. panjang lagi masa.

selamat hari raya :)

EL90 said...

^^ selamat hari raya jugakk ;)

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