forgetful

Suddenly..

i forgot lots of things...

i forgot to smile
i forgot to laugh
i forgot to be happy
i forgot everything.....

and i want to forget everyone too...

why is it everything seems very painful right now?

Being love...it is a pleasant feelings..but it hurts like A LOT...
Being cared...we should be grateful for that...but all i felt is grief..
Being offered a TRUST...it is a big responsibilities plus an honour....
and again, another BUT....i felt sad...
a slightest care showed, will send me away...
when tears falling down..
i started to hate myself again...
you are WEAK!too WEAK!

they said i am a strong girl...
i said...i am nothing without you guys...
but still
i wonder why i choose this path...
making mistakes and screwing up everything
this is not me..